Conundrum: I was approached by a mother at church yesterday who asked if I would be interested in being her 9-year-old daughter’s mentor. “I want her to have other strong Christian women in her life besides me. I want her to hear other viewpoints beyond mine.” While I absolutely admire this and wish my mother had done something similar, my initial reaction was to say no because I am secretly Agnostic and I don’t think this mother wants an atheist contaminating her daughter.
Then I had two other thoughts. 1) This is good practice for when we adopt older children. Hang out, talk, and eat. Not a big deal. 2) I already introduce some of my personal values to the children in my life like my niece and nephew. Even though I know my brother and sister-in-law probably (stupidly) believe in young earth creationism, if my nephew asks me when his favorite dinosaur lived I give him a few million year answer. When my other nephew says he is afraid of the dark because of demons, I walk him outside, sit him in my lap, and explain to him what darkness and stars and light are.
I don’t want to mislead this mother though. Although I am still living as a closeted agnostic, I would like to do so with as much integrity as I can.
This is a personal, but secret, blog archiving my deconversion from a Christian to a non-believer.